Having hard time to believe it oh, really

Darn, it is so “too good to be true”

Wish you won’t vanish out of the blue

~0~

Hunny, you are just so full of Love

You’re the coolest thing I ever have

Oh my, you just swept me off my feet

Lovely emotion I’ve ever felt

~0~

This so called life you give new meaning

You made me an inspired human being

I cannot help it, I am falling hard

You made me grateful to this life I have

~0~

For always oh, dear please stay with me

I’ll be lost without your love Hunny

You made me see things in a lovely perspective

Bubbles you are all I ever wanted!

—

april2009

exhausted and fears pouring

wishing for a Loving Mother

whose warm embrace calmly soothes her

oOo

tired of playing this masquerade

borrowed strength now starting to fade

chasing the much elusive faith

inspiration you are too late

oOo

looking back, what  a life it was

ups and downs of colorful past

after all it was worth living

oh God thank you for the blessings

oOo

life’s a bit harsh and will never be fair

no one assures of easy ride oh dear!

endure and savor every moment

life’s all about this so live with it

oOo

2100hrs 01-Apr-2011 auh, uae

2. Am not maldita just expressive

3. Am not loud just vivacious

4. Am not hot-tempered just intense

5. Am not self-centered just know what I’m capable of

6. Am not insistent just know what I want

7. Am not stubborn just know where I stand

8. Am not vain just enhancing life’s gifts

9. Am not carefree just celebrating life

10. Am not flirt just irresistible

11. Am not a show-off just sharing good stuff

12. Am not selfish just loving myself so as to love others

This is what you call attitude, you have problem with that?!?

F*ck! In an off-season

Shouldn’t be now and not here

Must have been before oh dear

♥♥♥

But fate brought you to me

For what? Don’t know really

We’ll just enjoy each other’s company

As there is still a lot for us to see

♥♥♥

If your unwanted coming,

Is just to teach me something

I would be grateful for the lesson

It must be enough for a reason

♥♥♥

Certainly you’ll leave a mark

In my life and in my heart

We will make and share memories

For life time it will be cherished

♥♥♥

Be faithful, be good and be mine

No one else will be in your mind

Nobody, nobody but ME!

♥♥♥

14 oct. 2009

No one knows what will come

You would want to wish to be numb

(“,)

No one sees what is approaching

When you will be in melancholy

Or just enjoying life completely

(“,)

Some avoids seeing the truth

By expecting the unexpected

To downplay the things we dread

(“,)

Sometimes fate gives us little choices

Some are ugly and degrading

And some are just liberating

(“,)

Yet after all the education and experiences

Us fools, still get surprised

By this enigmatic so called LIFE!

And my heart you did not at all tame

It is yearning, longing and wanting

Desires for insatiable feelings

~o~

The magical emotions you set me

Puts me in deep susceptibility

And this maybe my heart’s delight

Or sadness which I have to fight

~o~

You have patted them all but me

That left me so blue and lonely

I need a fire to kindle my heart

Not to be dampen, oh it’s not smart

~o~

I’ll be wishing for you again

Counting the days as my heart pains

But I’ll be patiently waiting

For that lovely feeling you bring

~o~

You mystical rain…..

Posted in adiK's Korner Tagged: broken heart, desires, emotions, feelings, heartaches, life, loneliness, longings, Love, pains, rain, realtionship ]]> http://yenney21.wordpress.com/2009/12/14/y-o-u/feed/ 0 Yen http://yenney21.wordpress.com/2009/10/05/rolls-of-it/ http://yenney21.wordpress.com/2009/10/05/rolls-of-it/#comments Mon, 05 Oct 2009 08:54:13 +0000 Yen http://yenney21.wordpress.com/?p=137 ]]> Crying is becoming a good friend lately. Felt so sweet, relaxing and calming.  Always eases the confusion, relieve me from loneliness, accompanies me in solitude.

By experiencing it while in this unusual state of emotion I now realize how unfathomable the feelings can become. The complexity of life results to a mix of various emotions. Worries, fears, pains, feeling so blessed yet unaccomplished things depress me.

The present situation I am in is so inconvenient, this maybe explains everything. What is disappointing is I don’t have a choice but to endure it. As enduring it is the best option for now.

Sacrifices have to be made to save the more important factors of life. Chances are not attractive at all, too little choices and worst, all of it is ugly.

To savor the unwanted feeling and to get over a stupid emotion like this let the tears take it course, let it flow and run down through your cheeks. And just make sure you have a lot of 2-ply tissue paper or your nose fluids will compete with it and spoil your mellow drama moments… tsk tsk tsk

dawn of 17-sep-2009 cebu, phils.

Was it made just to play a prank on me? Or it was made because somehow you missed the talks we have shared?

Was it made out of boredom? Or it was made because sometimes you remember me?

Was it made out of waking up at the wee hours and got nothing to do? Or it was made because sometimes you wonder how I have been doing?

Was it made because sleep was unfriendly to you due to intoxicating yourself of pure black coffee? Or it was made because you are wondering what I am thinking?

Was it made because you just come across my name on your phone book at a boring dawn? And just thought  “alright let us see if she takes the call”. Or it was made just to get a hint if I have gotten over you?

Or was it made just to test yourself how and what would you feel upon hearing my voice? Whichever I’ll be happy to listen to you.

Furthermore, which one of the following state of emotions you had that made you do such call?

Are you soul searching? And wonders if you can find yourself in me?

Are you at loss? And hopes that you will see a glimpse of light in me?

Are you feeling like being nothing and purposeless? And hopes to find your reason in me?

Are you feeling worthless? And wonders if I can define you?

Are you feeling being a lonely soul in a hollow world? And wonders if I can give meaning in your life?

Are you feeling like an abandoned soldier in a defeated fight? And wonders if I can give you back your pride?

Or are you just simply ego tripping?

Whichever I will be glad to listen to you.

For the mean time I would like you to know what that call made me feel.

Disturbed. The call wakes me up in my goodnight sleep. Indeed ‘twas really uncalled for.

Wonders. The number is unregistered and it made me ask myself who the hell makes a call at this unholy hour.

Surprised. When you introduced yourself I cannot believe at first it was you calling. After all this time of ignoring me?

Annoyed. When you ask what I have been up to lately? At a time when half of the world must be snoring?

Disappointed. When you said you just called to say HI. WTF! Are you kidding me?

And now, I am HATING MYSELF because that call strike up a little hope in me that indeed I still hold a place in your heart.

Stupid. That is how I see myself of still hoping. F*ck it!

Way laing buhaton kungdi maghinuktok

Mata pirmi na lang gaduka

Magsige lang panghuy-ab ang baba

~o~

Maghari ang pagkatapulan

Nawng pirming pilit sa unlan

Pirming bug-at ang lawas

Ginhawa mag abot kai kutas

~o~

Sa pagkaon dili kalikayan ang maibog

Igka busog sa sofa muderecho’g lubog

Kung matulog way sipyat ang hagok

Sa kadako lagmit hubagan sa ilok

~o~

Sa diet magdako lang ang huna-huna

Sa katre magsige na lang ug hapa

Keyk ug tsokolet pirming kan-on

Kung mulakaw naa pay bawon

~o~

Maibog sa mga seksi ug nindot

Apan dili ganahan magpasingot

Haron unta ang tambok malanay

Sa ingon wala nay pagmahay

~o~

Memories. Some we want to forget. Some we love to reminisce over and over again. Because of pains that we have felt we want to bury some moments of our lives to grave. Along with the soil erosion as the gravity continues to pull its protege we are trying hard to let those memories vanish with it. We must forget the event but not the lessons. Just as the opposite there are happenings that we love to recount. Events that make us happy every time we remember it. Experiences that inspire us and make our lives meaningful. Enough to give us reason to be happy, be thankful and to hold on for our dear life.

Story of our lives. There’s a lot. At different aspects and in various perspectives. A story worth telling. Just like my life. So full of color with different shades. Just like a kaleidoscope, depends from what angle you will look at.  It is full of pains and sacrifices and yet indeed worth living. Along with all of these there are times when you wake up from your sleep being sad. Sad for reasons you don’t know or for no reason at all. You may try to comprehend the feeling but to no avail and to your disappointment. You may get confused why you try to cling on the negative emotions when it brings nothing but more sadness. But it is not totally negative at all, just like everything else, it has exception. Being sad humbles you. It gives pleasure to its opposite, you savor happiness to its fullest when you had felt pain and sadness before. Why am I in this condition while writing this I don’t even understand. All I know is this feeling sets me in a deep state of emotion. It is like I am in another dimension of life, right in the middle of reality and wishful thinking. In a trance. And just now I realized that it is almost a month since I last used the ever reliable girly thing with wings…. Hhhmmmmm… Just another PMS. Shocks!